There's So Much More To Say

Where do I start?
First of all I dont care for anyone
Not unless you feel what i feel
Know what i know
Or have seen what I've seen
It's easy to feel sad
And reminince about happiness
But at the end of the day
you weren't there.

I feel like an orphan
Can't put it any other way
I never thought i'd be like this
I was woken up
Told to change clothes
I had to go to the funeral.

Never thought i'd raid my closet
To find an outfit for this.

Your skin so pale
and still
So unlike you
No warmth in your face
Which was always so happy
Even in your moments of pain

You tried so hard to stay with us
No person has tried harder
But in the end it was too much
You simply said "No more"
Not even you could take so much

Even in you last moments
You were still thinking about us
Your students
Your girls
But it doesn't matter

This doesnt fit into my head

I...simply cant understand
Anything
I love you and i wish you were still here, i've never met anyone like you before, you had so much love for absolutely everyone, you are incredible.
Your death to me means the end of a era, and nothing will be as it was before
this has been my darkest hour, laying flowers in your grave.

We will Always remember you, ALL of us, everyone who ever met you
we all stand in your shade.